Whatever I Want (Whatever that is)

I have a tendency of liking guys who are faintly aloof when it comes to expressing their emotions, which is strange considering I’m pretty much the opposite of that. In my last relationship, this was our biggest problem. (That, coupled with his inability to commit due to his infantile distaste for stability and responsibility.) So when that was over I decided that it would be really nice to be with someone who gave a shit and let me know he gave a shit. Someone who praised me for my awesomeness.

For quite a while I wondered if I wasn’t as awesome as I had thought. For a long time I was really self conscious and had low self esteem, and even now I have my off days. But for the most part, I think I’m awesome and I wondered why, unlike many of my friends, I’ve never had the super devoted dude. I had been warned by a friend, however, that in reality the situation is not as appealing as I had made it out to be.